Hello and happy Tuesday!
Today I had a weird day and wanted to come on here and just talk it out with you guys. I mean, after all we did basically agree to be each other’s BFF’s.
My day started off great. I had my favorite coffee with coconut creamer, did my makeup flawlessly and got hundreds of kisses from my kitten, Coco. I then headed off to a hair appointment to lighten and tone my hair. I was super excited, because who doesn’t love getting their hair done?! I had a phone call I was expecting while I was there for an opportunity I was super excited about. I love doing new and fun things (duh) and am always looking for fresh starts and new occasions. Anyways, I was having the time of my life with my favorite hairdresser (we’ll call her K). Eating my Backyard Bowls “Berry Bowl” and singing along to Justin Bieber’s new song, “Cold Water”, was a Tuesday well spent in my book….at least so far. I was waiting for a phone call, anxious as usual (idk why I have a random fear of phone calls), and it finally came. Basically, the news wasn’t great and I didn’t get the opportunity I had been set on for a few weeks.
Instantly I felt so hurt. I felt out of control, defeated, almost. This was such a strange feeling for me. I always aim to be positive, full of love and gratitude for this Universe and everything/everyone around me. I remind myself daily that divine timing is always perfect, and that everything happens for a reason. I remind myself that I AM a conscious creator and my thoughts manifest into reality. Yet, I couldn’t accept that this wasn’t the right opportunity for me. My heart hurt and it felt as though a beautiful sunny day inside my mind had turned into a dark storm.
Feeling like you did everything you could and still not getting what you want sucks. We can all admit this. However, I came home, made myself dinner and then meditated. After meditation I felt much clearer. I reminded myself that I did everything I could, and that I am not as powerful as this Universe so I cannot control much more than myself. I reminded myself that I am strong and powerful…but I also reminded myself that I am peaceful. I realized that I held positive thoughts, did all that I could do and the rest wasn’t up to me. I realized that this opportunity wasn’t for me. It wasn’t right for me, my path and my life, as much as I believed it was.
This Universe is huge. It is so much greater than anything we can ever even fathom. We are specks of cosmic dust. Although we have the power to consciously create, the rest is up to something greater. My yoga teacher always says “waheguru”, which basically means “whatever”, or letting the Universe know that we let go of our worries and control because although we are powerful, we are not the only power in this cosmic realm.
The lesson here is: if you don’t get something/something doesn’t go as planned (even though you worked SO hard and did EVERYTHING you possibly could), don’t worry. Let go. Let go of the anger. Let go of the frustration. Let go of the feeling that you’re not good enough. You’re not only “good enough”, you’re a piece of this beautiful Universe, a sparkling piece of stardust. Don’t ever tell me that the beautiful piece of energy, love and compassion (that is YOU) is not good enough. Whatever it was that you wanted so bad clearly did not have a place in your life. It did not serve your highest good and was not there for a reason.
Our whole life is a series of choices. Every single choice (no matter how big or small) has brought me to this exact moment today. Same goes for you. Every single choice you have made has brought you here to this moment, reading this blog and this post. It’s magical when you think about it.
So, if your thoughts are positive and you’re focusing on what you want in life and something doesn’t work out, don’t worry. It didn’t belong there in the first place. I know I’ll look back at this moment in a few months and laugh. I’ll laugh at how upset I was and that I almost cried into my acai bowl. I’ll laugh because for a second I didn’t trust divine timing and my own power. I’ll laugh because life’s too short not to laugh, even if your strawberries are soaking in tears.
You’re incredible. You’re magical. You’re powerful. To be completely honest, your life is too precious to be upset. Don’t let one thing/person/place or moment turn into a spiral of sadness /doubt or negativity. Let go. The Earth will still spin and the Sun will still rise, and your life will continue full of happiness, opportunity and success.
Smile. Smile because the Sun loves you. Smile because the moon loves you. Fuck it, smile because I love you.